Christmas is a strange time for me... nevertheless a time I have to reflect on the loved ones who aren't spending it with me this year. It's our first Christmas without my grandfather, which if you knew him, you'd know that he was the Cracroft Christmas spirit. No turns taken reading the story of Christ's birth from the bible, no singing of "Silent Night" in German, and you certainly did not hear his voice belting "We Wish You A Merry Christmas" as you woke up that morning. As my fork picked apart the traditional breakfast casserole, I sincerely started to miss everything that was my previously noted Christmases.
Gifts were given, open, and received within a matter of minutes. It seems as we get older, the presents get fewer and far more expensive. I've seemed to have really lost sight of what is really important this year; family. I'm grateful to have had the opportunity to drive home to see my family for the holidays. No matter what kind of mess you are in, those late night "help" phone calls, heartbreaks, anxiety attacks, they are always there at the foundation of your very soul. I believe that your mind and body need family. Amidst all of life's changes, I know my family is that one stable thing in my life to return to in order to get back to my roots.
Mother, this one is for you as well. My mom is lucky enough this year to take part in my grandfather's first Christmas in heaven. I know, it sounds silly, but it kind of soothes my heart to know that family still lives on, even distant from this world. Like every year since I was eight, I miss her a lot too. I spent a good amount of my downtime last night flipping through old scrapbooks, scrounging my subconscious for any memories of her to relive. Even though I didn't have much time with her, I have been feeding off the words of those who did know her, in order to put together this image of who I think she was. An attribute of hers that always makes me think of her is doing kind things for others. No matter who the person is, I think everyone deserves the occasional out-of-the-blue plate of cookies, gift, cup of coffee, or note of appreciation. I'd drain all of my bank accounts, just to show others that I care for them.
Relating back to my earlier posts of overcoming fits of depression, I've found that doing things for others really can make a difference. If you are feeling blue, get your mind busy and do something for someone else. Being the season that it is, giving only appears natural. Putting a smile on someone else's face is a huge step towards personal happiness. You have many gifts to offer the world, so give them. There is a very good chance that you may be reaching out to someone who may also be in a time of need.
I hope that you, reader, also don't forget the real spirit of Christmas this year. Use that shiny new iPhone 5 to call a friend or family member you haven't talked to in a while.
Christmas spirit may be dwindling this year, but I sure can give every day happiness a hell of a shot.
